Thoughts Unveiled #21

"What’s your edge?"

When I was still in school we had this interview thingy for Personality Development and I got asked the question above. We all know me — I’m not very good at talking and interviews involve a lot of that plus three pairs of eyes scrutinizing me plus I hate not being able to really think about my answer before answering a question. So, I went on about being matured for my age and some other shit I will not bore you with.

Anyway, I’ve been thinking about that question ever since and I came up with an answer that I think makes more sense and I can actually be proud of (maybe).

I was just thinking how people are different mixtures of different things. We may have a trait or a skill or a talent that’s the same with others, but that’s not really all you’ve got. No two people are exactly the same. Heck, even identical twins or triplets are different from one another. So really, all I can think of to answer that question is that I’m me. That’s my edge. That’s what separates me from the others. That’s what makes me different and that’s what makes me stand out. You see, if I say that my edge is I can sing, or I can cook dessert, or I work hard, I’m sure there are at least thousands of other people who are the same and thousands more that are better than me in doing those things. But nobody else can be me. And I may not be perfect, and I’m far from it, I know. But that’s what sets me apart from the rest of the people on earth. I am a different mixture from everybody else and nobody can take that away from me, the same way I can’t take away another person’s personality and self.

So. I’ve said my piece. What about you, what is your edge?

Information Overload!!! (TMI Tag)

I’ve been wanting to do this for a while now but life got in the way (excuses, excuses lol), but now it’s finally here! I also did another tag on my Youtube channel where I answered more basic questions. In case you haven’t seen it yet, click here. Anyway, here goes nothing. :)

1: What are you wearing? An old shirt and a pair of baggy shorts.
2: Ever been in love? Yup.
3: Ever had a terrible breakup? Nope. I haven’t even had one breakup. Go figure. :)
4: How tall are you? 5’4”. I don’t know for sure, but I always say 5’4” when people ask about my height. :)
5: How much do you weigh? Don’t even go there. :))))
6: Any tattoos? Nope.
7: Any piercings? One in each of my ears.
8: OTP? Summer Roberts x Seth Cohen 5EVER
9: Favorite show? The OC and Scandal. :bd
10: Favorite bands? I’m not really a band-loving person, but I’ll never get tired of listening to The Beatles. Cliché? Oh! Well okay, there’s Lady Antebellum…
11: Something you miss? Highschool. No explanations needed.
12: Favorite song? I don’t know, I don’t think I have one. OMG IS IT WEIRD THAT I DON’T HAVE A FAVORITE SONG
13: How old are you? Twenteen. :) DON’T EVEN.
14: Zodiac sign? Cancer.
15: Quality you look for in a partner? IF IT’S NOT THEO JAMES NEVERMIND
16: Favorite Quote? “It does not matter how slow you go, so long as you do not stop.”
17: Favorite actor? Robert Downey Jr., Neil-Patrick Harris, Johnny Depp.
18: Favorite color? Pink! And white! And gold! Sorry, I’m super indecisive.
19: Loud music or soft? Depends on my mood.
20: Where do you go when you’re sad? I don’t get sad easily, so if I’m sad, there might be a pretty good reason and I’d probably be crying or I might want to cry, so I’d definitely just go to my room so I could cry in peace.
21: How long does it take you to shower? I want to lie about this but my friends might read it and they’ll bash me forever for sure. Sooo, I gotta tell the truth and nothing but the truth lol. 30mins to an hour. But I could make it 5mins if I want to. Kidding, 10mins minimum.
22: How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 2 and a half hours tops.
23: Ever been in a physical fight? Yup! Ask my siblings lol.
24: Turn on? Nice smile. Beautiful eyes. Hilarious. And taller than me! Heehee.
25: Turn off? Cocky and smelly.
26: The reason I joined Youtube? I just really wanted to subscribe to people’s channels.
27: Fears? It would take us a whole friggin’ day if I enumerate them all, but claustrophobia is on top of the list.
28: Last thing that made you cry? That friggin’ book by Veronica Roth: Allegiant.
29: Last time you said you loved someone? Just a few minutes ago.
30: Meaning behind your YouTube Name? Nothing. It’s just my name.
31: Last book you read? I just finished Saving Quinton by Jessica Sorensen. #dafeels
32: The book you’re currently reading? Shut Out by Kody Keplinger
33: Last show you watched? Game of Thrones! I’m still in season 2 though. -_-“
34: Last person you talked to? Me brotha
35: The relationship between you and the person you last texted? My bitch! Heeeheee. One of my best friends.
36: Favorite food? Pizzaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
37: Place you want to visit? Europe! <3 (seriously though, who doesn’t wanna go there?)
38: Last place you were? In the kitchen. I’m cooking lunch! :)
39: Do you have a crush? Of course! I’m a normal person.
40: Last time you kissed someone? Pass. LOL
41: Last time you were insulted? I probably get insulted all the time, even without me knowing it — you know there is a lot of evil in this world, but I just don’t really let negative people affect me. That would be a waste of my time.
42: Favorite flavor of sweet? Vanilla or dark chocolate or white chocolate. One can’t just choose one flavor of sweet, it’s simply preposterous!
43: What instruments do you play? Guitar and piano/organ/keyboards
44: Favorite piece of jewelery? I don’t have a specific one, but I like vintage-looking necklaces and bold statement rings.
45: Last sport you played? Volleyball.
46: Last song you sang? Almost Is Never Enough by Ariana Grande feat. that guy from that boy band. Been singing it for weeks. I can’t get enough!
47: Favorite chat up line? I don’t have one.
48: Have you ever used it? Nope.
49: Last time you hung out with anyone? Yesterday. I’m gonna miss you sooo much, my “okra” friends! <3
50: Who should answer these questions next? You, you, you, and you!


"Goodbyes are important, even if they’re scary and awkward. So always, always, say goodbye."

Thoughts Unveiled #20

I always have to remind myself that if a person really wants to get involved with you, really wants to talk to you, really wants to see you and be with you, that person would do anything — everything to make it happen. No excuses. And I’m not just talking about romance.

It gets tiring, you know. You make all the efforts to save a relationship no matter how obviously things are falling apart. You reach out to them because you love them and you want to keep them in your life, but what will you do if they don’t want to stay?

It breaks my heart but I think it’s time to let go. I’m done doing too much of my part. I’m done forcing myself into someone’s life when they obviously don’t want me there anymore. I’m done making all the efforts. I’m done. I am so fucking tired. Goodbye.

Stuff happens. We get lost. We try to control what will happen. We give up. We do things that don’t make sense. We search for things in the wrongest of ways. We lose our way, but sometimes, if we’re really, really strong, we manage to find our way back.

     — Nova Reed, Breaking Nova by Jessica Sorensen

Ending the month with good food, good movies, polaroids, and the best friends one could ever ask. Yieeee I’M SO SWEET I COULD GIVE YOU CAVITIES!!! <3 #clingyfriend